Sleepy session

Hi guys!! It's a freaking beautiful day! I'm currently blogging in a lovely grassy spot outside :)
I'm a little nervous because theres a bunch of tables nearby.. I think they're gonna set up that W day thing right where I'm sitting. Awkward.

Also, warning: I can't really see my computer screen due to the glare of the sun. Let's just say this blog is free form... I'm just going to keep typing. I can't see what I'm typing, and I'm not going to put in much effort to go back and change things (because I can't see)

Anways, I figured it was about time for me to start reflecting on the session we had on Tuesday. I'm a little nervous because I didn't really take any notes. I hope I can remember enough to write the reflection. I should have just blogged right after the session on Tuesday, but I was really tired and cranky. I guess that's my first point. I had been having a pretty bad couple of days before the session.  I had a paper due that day, got minimal sleep the few previous nights before, was super stressed out with other homework, and honestly just wanted to pause life for a bit so I could sleep and get my shit together. I was feeling like my life's a mess.

Naturally, I was especially nervous about the session I was supposed to have. I felt like there was no way I could lead a productive session! I couldn't even think straight. The was no way I could help John make a cohesive paper if my thoughts weren't even cohesive.  I was feeling a little guilty. I didn't want my life problems to hinder our session. Regardless, we started the session like any other.

Of course, John asked me to read the paper out loud. The one day where I really, truly didn't want to read aloud, and probably couldn't even focus enough to do so, the writer wanted me to read aloud. It was awful. I stumbling over lots of words, I had to stop and thinking about what I was actually reading. It was a problem.

I actually cane to realize that my confusion might have helped the session. I was asking real, honest questions because I didn't know what was going on. John was able to clear things up, and I think it changed the way he thought about the paper. He marked some things to change and clarify. Most importantly, we talked about whether or not each part of the paper was even relevant. We realized the argument he was trying to make was not stated in his thesis. WE made a plan to change the thesis, and restructure the paper to match. I feel like at the end of the session John knew what he needed to do, but I'm not sure.

I hope he thought the session went well. I hope he didn't realize I was a tired, cranky mess. Tuesday I learned that I need to make sure my personal problems don't affect the sessions.